Sunday, June 26, 2005
I hate people accusing me. I hate it when people accuse me, accuse me of something that i have not done. No matter how i explain, he or she is determined that i am the one. wtf. It's not the first time i am being accused of "sorta" spoiling the tv. Hello. The tv is not spoiled yet and i already made many cautious movements to prevent the tv from spoiling.
Yesterday, when my parents went out, i watched a dvd and after finish watching, i remembered and confirmed that i have switch back to tv mode. When my mum on the television, something changed and my dad called me. He asked who was using the tv just now. I admitted. Then somehow, he scolded me. I cant really remember the details. Hello. I really did change back to tv mode and straight away switch off the damn television. Even, if i really forgotten to change back to tv mode, i switched off the television and i didnt touch the tv anymore. When my mum used the television, she asked for my dad how to switch it back. I dunno what happen during that time as i was in my room playing game. And you know what happen after that. Haiz. Whatever, i am already being used to it. I just really hate the feeling of being maligned. I dont think anyone likes the feeling of being accused. The feeling is horrible.
Talking about television, it made me reminds a programme called true horror which was shown on discovery channel. Well, when i saw horror, the first thing that came to my mind was ghosts, all those eerie stuff. But little did i know that the horror means real horror. It really horrified me and it was shown on midnight there. SO you can understand how horror it can be. It's not ghost stories but it's true human stories. I really dun want to say it as it really freak me and my two friends out. I even had nightmares after watching the show. I didnt finish watching the show. It's grotesque. Haiz. I really dun want to say the details out even though i'm tempted to blog it here. Must learn self- control.
OK.
Me out.
took a picture of love/6/26/2005 03:50:00 PM
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Actually, i thought of writing something in here, but it seems that my memory is failing me now. Anyway, my memory fails me frequently. It will not only for certain circumstances. The most possibility would be having exams or tests. I will force the brain juice out. Since, i have talked about tests, i would just say that, maybe choosing poly isnt better for me.
Why?
It's because tests would catch you up very fast that is there would be test almost every week until your break. hahaz. I have been counting, or saying estimating, it seems that the tests are endless. hahaz. I have a bio test tomorrow, and i really have been studying real hard for it as i dont have any bio background. But it seems that, no matter how hard i study, i just cant seem to memorise all the important facts. When my friends test me, i have problems answering it, but, eventually, i answered it. Haiz. It's only 2 chapters and i cant stand it. I dont know how am i going to handle my semstral examinations.
I met a senior today. She said that there's no really need to borrow text books to score well. She said, the notes are sufficient enough to score well. I'm not sure. haiz.
Must i really need to study bio now? I'm too lazy. haiz.
Arghh.. I dunno what i am talking. haiz Stress. What the. It's not even a month yet and i'm complaining stress. Shit lahz.
haiz
I'm being nonsensical. I dunno really know what i am talking about. haiz . However,most of the stuff is the truth. Haiz.
what the
Me out.
took a picture of love/6/22/2005 05:47:00 PM
Friday, June 17, 2005
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took a picture of love/6/17/2005 03:25:00 PM
I have been racking my brains since yesterday. I have been thinking what application my model can be. It really looks abstract and trash. Please help me. I really need help. I'm desperate. Lol. Anyway, i accept any suggestions. If u suggest something, you have to explain too. Okok Thanks. Please help ok??? Hahaha
There are pictures for your to see my model
Me out
back view
took a picture of love/6/17/2005 03:25:00 PM
left side view
took a picture of love/6/17/2005 03:24:00 PM
right side view
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took a picture of love/6/17/2005 03:24:00 PM
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
I'm finally back. Lol. I didnt go anywhere. I'm just back to the blogging world again. haha. I think i have not blog for a week bah. I think i am blogging on a weekly basis. lol. I'm recently busy, busy with my school stuff. Actually, i'm not really that busy. I have hws to do but i just too lazy to do it. Furthermore i'm having a test soon and it's bio lor. Die. Memory work. I cant really do memory stuff well. For example, I have a friend who recognise me but i dont recognise her. Furthermore i'm like kinda friends with her for 2 years. In addition, i dont really understand what the lecturer is talking about. But luckily, he said that it would be an easy paper. So hopefully, it would be.
Does i really resemble other people. They said i resemble a friend of theirs. Once happened during camp time, the other time happened recently. I remembered that whilst i was in the clubhouse chatting, a senior came into the clubhouse and pointed me then she rushed out again. My friend and I looked at each other baffled. After she came back, she said i looked like her friend and she mistook me as her friend. Haiz. Do i have split personality??? Hahaz.
I finally bought bsb album. I have anticipated for their album since last year. Their songs are quite nice. lol. I'm like kinda pro bsb lahz. But not really a hardcore fan of them. Lol.
Me out.
took a picture of love/6/15/2005 05:38:00 PM
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Actually, i have nth to blog. I blog for the sake of blogging. Haiz. I have a test coming up next week and it's like i'm feeling nervous all of a sudden. This is the first time i'm feeling this way. What's the problem man. Is it because i have been slacking for half a year that i have used to this type of life style. Well, it could be. I'm not sure. It could be many factors too. Firstly, these tests will determine my grade overall for the 3 years of my studies in sp. Therefore, i cant afford to do badly in any of those tests. It could be also that i have not used to the life in sp. Maybe that's why i am feeling loads of pressure.
Anyway, it's boring to say my studies over here. But i realised i have nothing to blog except my studies. I heard from my seniors that choosing DCHE is a bad idea and advised me to change course. Haiz. He said that it's not easy to study that course especially when it comes to year 2 and 3. He also said that it's not easy to study Chemical engineering in university as many people are also eyeing on that course too. Thus, he said that my grades must be all distinction, in other words to be the top 5% in that course. Well, to be the top 5% in that course, i must be in the top 6. OMG. It's so hard. It's not really easy though as there are many people who are much more talented than me. I will have a hard time in poly. Haiz. But no matter what, i stil have to be doubly hardworking which i find it's hard for me to do so already. I dont know why. Last time i could be really damn hardworking, keep studying. I have not studied my test yet as the lecturer has not finished teaching the topics which would be tested. Even so, i could still revise. Actually, i should be revising as i am learning new stuff. It's bio actually and bio needs loads of memorisation. Haiz. I cant study now. Haiz. Leaves are dropping, time is passing by and now i am sitting in front of the computer playing, chatting instead of revising. So shitty lahz.
I'm bullshitting, dont care me.
Me out.
took a picture of love/6/12/2005 02:15:00 PM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
After coming back from school, i straight away and go to meet my secondary school friend, jaya to accompany her to go to orchard to get her reserved textbook. Well, of course we loitered around there for awhile and soon we went home. When i'm reaching lakeside station, i feel my pockets for awhile and i realised that i had forgotten to bring my home keys. Omg. You might think what's the big deal forgetting to bring my house keys. It's a very big deal for me as at that time, nobody is at home. How am i supposed to go home. Throughout my life, this is the first time i am being locked outside by myself. I just reached home lor. My grandma went outside so i have to wait for her to come back so that i can place a foot on my house. lol. So i waited about 2 hrs. Definitely, i didnt sit around to kill time. I went to my friend house who lives near me. We chatted and soon it was time to leave again. Lol.
However, when i was in her house, imposing her, we went to see someone's blog. I dont wish to say his or her name for privacy sakes.. After visiting her blog, i kinda admire her guts. She has the courage to express her feelings about her crush which i lack of. Well, I dont think i even have the courage to blog it out. I wont even say who is my crush or wadever u called it to anybody except my very best or close friend. If not, i will just sealed my mouth and nobody can sound me out or try their way to make me leak it out. Lol.
I am so damn tired. Tomorrow, i have touch rugby training and i dont know whether i want to go or not. I see first. Lol. But i hope i would be more enthuasiastic about it. lol. I am liking CLS club people more and more. Lol. lalalala
Me out.
took a picture of love/6/08/2005 11:32:00 PM
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
I ponned my touch rugby training today. It's my officially first lesson and i ponned it. Lol. Well, i dont feel like going and my friends joinning touch rugby werent going for training today, thus so i decided that i might as well dont go too. Well, you can say i'm a follower or wadever. I'm immune to comments. Lol. Dont ask me why. Lol. I dont feel anything when people say me or anything. Well, i think it depends on how they comment me. Of course, if it's something ugly, i might either feel angry or sad. Lol.
Well, i think i am going to calvin's chalet. Well, it's his church chalet. I'm like the only non-christian over there. I am scared that i may make some actions which might be some of their taboos. They would later look at me or hint me something which would make me feel awkward or embarrassed. Lol. I dont know. lol. Well, of course, i'm going without any parental consent thus i have to leave very early. lol. Haiz. I can only stay there for only for a few hours and after that i would be going soon. Hahaz. I dont know whether would the chalet be fun but i hoped it would be. lol.
After smsing calvin, i thought of my parents going overseas today. I think they have reached their destination very early. Well, i think i have an imaginative mind as i thought of the plane which my parents took crashes and my parents were both dead. I dont know whether is it because i watched too much drama serials or not. So after habouring that thought, i feel guilty and unease as i am going to the chalet without letting my parents know. haiz. Instead of stopping to think of that disastrous thought, i continue to think further. I think of the aftermath if my parents died in the crash(touch wood). I dont really wish my parents to die because of some selfish reasons. Lol. I dont know whether i'm selfish or not, but till now, i'm still quite dependent on my parents only for some stuffs. Haiz. But i think i might go to his chalet but i cant really make much promises to that actually, especially if something crops up. Haiz.
Today, i heard that there's stock for the labcoat so i went into the store and asked whether there was stock for the labcoat and obviously, there was still no stock. It had went out of stock yesterday. OMG lor. I have practical on thurs and fri and i really need it. If i dont have labcoat, i cannot step into the lab and doing practical is important as it took some portion in my overall results. Thus, of course i borrowed labcoats from my friends. It's only temporary and eventually i still need to buy a labcoat for myself which i would be using for 3 years. Lol.
Pinghui wanted to change course. He said that he doesnt like the modules in the course in year 2 and 3. Well, i think he should make careful choices before filling in the form online. Haiz. I dont know what to say to him. Haiz. Getting tired more easily now. Lol.
I have stopped following with that group of friends already. I am with another group of friends. Lol. I think i would be much more happier in sp liao. Hope so bah.
Me out.
took a picture of love/6/07/2005 06:43:00 PM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
If you dont want me to come, then say it directly to me even though i know it hurts. Give urself a life or maybe give myself a life. Haiz. You are the one who invited me to come and later you are also the one who asked me to go away. What the fcuk. I hate people who gives me hot and cold attitude. Dont like me, say it. Dont give me a cold shoulder. I cant stand it if people dont talk to me even they are beside me. Yes, i know i'm getting unpopular with friends but who cares. I dont even care. Lol. Maybe i do care a bit. lol. hahaz
whatever.
Now, i hate my new nice as they were too pleasant. Idiotic fcukers. Sorry, to say something so vulgar. Sorry.
I think there are lesbians in my class. Is it true, i'm not sure as all my friends love to joke everything even though it can be a serious topic. I dont even know who and what to believe. I'm so innocent, naive and gullible. Lol. I hate it man. Or you can say, i cant catch up with them, or i dont fit in their world. I wanna be an austitic person. I will just live in my own world filled with illusions. Actually, i'm kinda disillusioned. Haiz. DOnt wanna talk about it.
Me out.
took a picture of love/6/02/2005 05:57:00 PM
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
After reading pf blog, i feel like blogging about my hair. Lol. Well, i just rebonded my hair again. I dont know how many times i have rebonded my hair, but definitely less tha 5 and less than my mum. Lol. Well, if u see me and saw my hair is straight, you should know that i have do something to my hair, obvious result of rebonding. lol. So please dont ask me, puihan, u rebonded ur hair huh? Well, if a few people asked me, i'm still ok with it. I will smile at them and said yes. But if people who know me and see me and keep asking me you rebonded ur hair, i will be pissed off, however not showing it on my face. Lol.
Anyway, i have join touch rugby as one of my cca. Lol. Well, my parent object me to join touch rugby because they were very afraid i would be terribly injured. Hello, it's touch rugby? It's not the authentic rugby. You would not be hit and stacked by the other opponents, you would only be touched or tapped by ur opponent. I find them very funny. I told them i maybe dont want to join sports then they replied that i would not exercise. So what does it means? That means, they want me to join a sport cca. Ok, i told them i might consider joining touch rugby and they have a very huge reaction to what i say. They of course object however, it's my cca. I think they would abide my decision and i'm 17 now. I'm going to be an adult soon so i would know whether this sports would get me terribly injured or not. lol. Anyway, i haven told them yet but i dont know what would they say or react to it. Hehe. I'm like kinda rebellious. Lol.
Anyway, i have a project on the topic of safety of personal care products which is due two months later. Lol. Many research have to be done. Haiz. The research is to be done as a group while the report is to be done individually. Of course, we have presentation on our progress of the report. Lolz. Even we present as a group, we will be marked individually. Lolz. Hahaz. I hope that i would score all my modules. Lolz. Fortunately, I have two modules which do not have semestral exam. Oh yea man. Lol.
Me out.
took a picture of love/6/01/2005 03:30:00 PM
